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Sunday, July 09, 2006

Currently Listening
Dusk and Summer
By Dashboard Confessional
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I finally found something real.

This week was amazing.
Kristi Bradshaw & Rachel Adamson are incredible.
Those girls definitely made my week.

God is Great. I can handle these next 2 weeks. Thanks to you girls that are praying for me. I love you.

Now I'm leaving again tomorrow.
3 in the morning.
Be sure to leave me comments since I'll be online over there.
I love you all.
Take care.

3:18 PM - 73 views - 14 eprops - 9 comments - email it

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Currently Listening
Let It Die
By Feist
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No matter what you do to me, I'm still here. For some odd reason, I stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words. I just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor. I make up excuses on why you didn't call try to think of all the answers. I keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away. I don't know if I can do better, but do I really want to? You're quick to push me down when all I want is to be brought up. When I walk out for good, when I really gain the strength I need then maybe you will see. Maybe you can look back and say, "Wow that girl really did care about me."

2 days.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Currently Listening
Stadium Arcadium
By Red Hot Chili Peppers
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Not seeing them for a month is going to be so hard.

I've got nothing to write.

Just that I hate timing.
I hate how just when I think everything will be fine, something has to come and ruin that for me. How I'm so easily manipulated. How I just want to be happy, but knowing that giving in to it will just result in more pain in the end. I'm sick of not knowing what to do. I'm sick of letting people take advantage of my feelings. Knowing that if someone hurts me once, they'll hurt me again. But it's so hard when that person means so much to you. It hurts knowing what's to come and having to push all of your feelings aside because you keep telling yourself that it's for the better.
It's for the better?
Is it?

I give up.

Thank Goodness for my girls. They mean the world to me.

1:22 AM - 105 views - 26 eprops - 20 comments - email it

Monday, June 12, 2006

	You do not know how much this hurts me To say these things that I don't want to say But have to say them anyway I would do anything to end your suffering But you would rather walk away I hate this.
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Monday, May 29, 2006

It's so weird to think about where I was a year ago.
How much change has occured.
How different I am now.
I've learned that change is necessary.
That so much good can come out of the bad, if you let it..
Worrying gets you nowhere.
Following your heart isn't always the solution.
Everytime I get hurt, just makes the next time easier.
I'm learning peoples' tricks, trying not to dwell on the past, and learning from my mistakes..
Regret isn't an option.
Getting my heartbroken is already getting old...& I have so much more to come. But now I'm more prepared.
I'm not one to let a couple bad experiences bring me down.

This year has really opened my eyes to how amazing my life really is.
How many incredible people God has placed in my life.
I really take it all for granted.
These past couple of months have really forced me to grow up.
Who knew not having your mom around for 7 months could make things so different.
I've matured. Gotten closer to figuring out who I really am. Realized that trying to make everyone happy shouldn't be my only option. Staying true to myself is so much more important. That I can't force everyone to like me. Being with the people that truly care about me is all I should worry about.
It's nice having genuine people in my life. People I can actually count on. I've had my imperfections pointed out to me many times, but I'm just taking it as advice on how to improve. You may not like me, but I'd rather be me...and not have to act like someone else just to save myself from a couple cruel words whispered behind my back..
You're right, It's a gradual thing. Don't expect me to be perfect. I'm growing up. That's part of highschool.

I'm taking life one step at a time. There's no point in worrying about the future or dwelling on the past. It's all in learning, and my mistakes are what make me the person I am today. Like it or not, that's how it is.

I'm trying to get the most out of what I can.

I love them.

I'm going to miss his thumb wars.

Listening to Shakira with her...

& taking pictures with this girl...

This summer's going to be great.
My girls are incredible.

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